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  <title>felinejaye</title>
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    <name>felinejaye</name>
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  <updated>2019-04-26T18:16:23Z</updated>
  <dw:journal username="felinejaye" type="personal"/>
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    <id>tag:dreamwidth.org,2013-11-29:2125775:2559</id>
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    <title>felinejaye @ 2019-04-27T04:14:00</title>
    <published>2019-04-26T18:16:23Z</published>
    <updated>2019-04-26T18:16:23Z</updated>
    <category term="jaye talks"/>
    <dw:mood>happy</dw:mood>
    <dw:security>public</dw:security>
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    <content type="html">&amp;nbsp;I really love watching my partner flapping his hands when stimulated. It's the cutest and best thing.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=felinejaye&amp;ditemid=2559" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/&gt; comments</content>
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    <id>tag:dreamwidth.org,2013-11-29:2125775:2141</id>
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    <title>Dysphoria This Evening</title>
    <published>2019-03-14T12:32:32Z</published>
    <updated>2019-03-14T12:32:32Z</updated>
    <category term="jaye talks"/>
    <category term="transgender"/>
    <dw:mood>distressed</dw:mood>
    <dw:security>public</dw:security>
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    <content type="html">&amp;nbsp;Sometimes I frighten myself thinking that I think myself a woman.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Society's heteronormativity and at least twice the decade believing myself a gender I am not leaves me feeling automisogynistic and feeling as if I am &lt;strong&gt;enforcing&lt;/strong&gt; heteronormativity, not being a victim of it.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It is frustrating.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=felinejaye&amp;ditemid=2141" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/&gt; comments</content>
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    <id>tag:dreamwidth.org,2013-11-29:2125775:1926</id>
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    <title>More Necrotic Poems</title>
    <published>2019-03-08T08:30:51Z</published>
    <updated>2019-03-08T08:30:51Z</updated>
    <category term="tall tails writing"/>
    <category term="morbid"/>
    <category term="death"/>
    <category term="poetry"/>
    <category term="necro"/>
    <dw:mood>Morbid</dw:mood>
    <dw:security>public</dw:security>
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    <content type="html">Last Christmas I gave you my heart,&lt;br /&gt;The very next day you gave it away&lt;br /&gt;But the police where already investigating.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I never had the chance&lt;br /&gt;To feel your lipstick on mine&lt;br /&gt;Until I dressed you for your&lt;br /&gt;open casket viewing.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I love you just the way you are,&lt;br /&gt;No other will ever be up to par.&lt;br /&gt;With your eternal smile&lt;br /&gt;And your heart preserved in its jar.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;They call me a&amp;nbsp;&lt;br /&gt;Dying Romantic&lt;br /&gt;But you know that&lt;br /&gt;by now.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'll love you for the rest of my life,&lt;br /&gt;Because if I loved you for the rest of yours&lt;br /&gt;I would've stopped loving you&lt;br /&gt;yesterday.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;If you haven't met&lt;br /&gt;Your true love yet just&lt;br /&gt;Work for a morgue.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br type="_moz" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=felinejaye&amp;ditemid=1926" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/&gt; comments</content>
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    <id>tag:dreamwidth.org,2013-11-29:2125775:1648</id>
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    <title>felinejaye @ 2019-03-05T01:48:00</title>
    <published>2019-03-04T14:50:55Z</published>
    <updated>2019-03-04T14:50:55Z</updated>
    <category term="aka. me thinking aloud"/>
    <category term="jaye chatters"/>
    <dw:mood>thoughtful</dw:mood>
    <dw:security>public</dw:security>
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    <content type="html">&amp;nbsp;I need to remember to upload different icons for different purposes. Lackadaisy for writing, demon!Dipper for Scratches are? And what for gaming? Hm...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=felinejaye&amp;ditemid=1648" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/&gt; comments</content>
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    <id>tag:dreamwidth.org,2013-11-29:2125775:1497</id>
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    <title>Necrotic Poems</title>
    <published>2019-03-04T14:47:00Z</published>
    <updated>2019-03-05T04:36:45Z</updated>
    <category term="necro"/>
    <category term="poetry"/>
    <category term="death"/>
    <category term="morbid"/>
    <category term="tall tails writing"/>
    <dw:mood>Morbid</dw:mood>
    <dw:security>public</dw:security>
    <dw:reply-count>0</dw:reply-count>
    <content type="html">I loved you,&lt;br /&gt;You died.&lt;br /&gt;I loved your corpse too.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;hr /&gt;My heart beats for you&lt;br /&gt;But yours needed blood&lt;div&gt;and bodily functions.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;hr /&gt;While I love you you are as cold as death&lt;br /&gt;And soil.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;hr /&gt;Your kisses taste like&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style="margin-left: 40px;"&gt;dirt&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style="margin-left: 80px;"&gt;and maggots.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;hr /&gt;I'm having you cremated&lt;br /&gt;So you can come in me&lt;br /&gt;One last time.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;hr /&gt;Roses are red&lt;br /&gt;Your cheeks are blue&lt;br /&gt;Your lips are black&lt;br /&gt;And I love you.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;hr /&gt;I was a storm and&lt;br /&gt;You were dead.&lt;br /&gt;I was the moon and&lt;br /&gt;You were still dead.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;hr /&gt;You are perfect&lt;br /&gt;And an organ donor.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;hr /&gt;I gave you chocolates,&lt;br /&gt;Cards and trinkets.&lt;br /&gt;I gave you songs and laughter and&lt;br /&gt;You gave me a funeral.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;hr /&gt;I will love you for&lt;div style="margin-left: 40px;"&gt;all your dying days.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;hr /&gt;&lt;div&gt;In your arms I felt&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style="margin-left: 40px;"&gt;Safe.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div&gt;In my arms you felt&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div style="margin-left: 40px;"&gt;Cold.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;hr /&gt;&lt;div&gt;Could I kiss your little sister&lt;br /&gt;Over your cold, hard grave?&lt;/div&gt;&lt;hr /&gt;&lt;div&gt;This bouquet of flowers remind me of you&lt;/div&gt;Because you're both&lt;div style="margin-left: 40px;"&gt;dead.&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=felinejaye&amp;ditemid=1497" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/&gt; comments</content>
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    <id>tag:dreamwidth.org,2013-11-29:2125775:1160</id>
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    <title>felinejaye @ 2019-02-08T20:31:00</title>
    <published>2019-02-08T09:36:32Z</published>
    <updated>2019-03-05T04:37:12Z</updated>
    <category term="dnd"/>
    <category term="boulder lily fallowinder"/>
    <category term="dnd oc"/>
    <dw:mood>artistic</dw:mood>
    <dw:security>public</dw:security>
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    <content type="html">&lt;img src="https://pillowfortmedia.s3.amazonaws.com/posts/63a88f44a66f_Boulder_dancing-sml.png" alt="" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;span style="color: rgb(68, 68, 68); font-family: &amp;quot;Helvetica Neue&amp;quot;, HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"&gt;Boulder in the middle of dancing a jig!&lt;/span&gt;&lt;p style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; outline: none 0px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; margin: 15px 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; line-height: inherit; font-family: &amp;quot;Helvetica Neue&amp;quot;, HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; vertical-align: baseline; box-sizing: border-box; color: rgb(68, 68, 68);"&gt;She had to sell a very lovely necklace to get all the citrine she&amp;rsquo;s wearing. And the dress and shoes, for that matter. The other necklace is her sanguine amulet, though.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; outline: none 0px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; margin: 15px 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; line-height: inherit; font-family: &amp;quot;Helvetica Neue&amp;quot;, HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; vertical-align: baseline; box-sizing: border-box; color: rgb(68, 68, 68);"&gt;My DnD party (the Cider House Rogues) are attending a ball so Boulder had to go shopping. She&amp;rsquo;s a gnome so she adores a party.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; outline: none 0px; -webkit-tap-highlight-color: transparent; margin: 15px 0px 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px; font-variant-numeric: inherit; font-variant-east-asian: inherit; font-stretch: inherit; line-height: inherit; font-family: &amp;quot;Helvetica Neue&amp;quot;, HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; vertical-align: baseline; box-sizing: border-box; color: rgb(68, 68, 68);"&gt;I had a tough time drawing her - this is probably the first time I&amp;rsquo;ve drawn someone actively in motion; her dress is flowing, her necklaces are suspended in the air, her hair and earrings swinging. I think it came out well, though. I also experimented with colouring black skin - specifically with her palms.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I really like the sapphires on her shoes.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=felinejaye&amp;ditemid=1160" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/&gt; comments</content>
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    <id>tag:dreamwidth.org,2013-11-29:2125775:779</id>
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    <title>Spectrum Girls - Blood Types</title>
    <published>2019-01-11T11:58:01Z</published>
    <updated>2019-03-05T04:51:27Z</updated>
    <category term="(no it's not homestuck)"/>
    <category term="spectrum girls"/>
    <category term="oc"/>
    <dw:security>public</dw:security>
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    <content type="html">&amp;nbsp;I remembered blood types and thought I'd sort them out. Might help with writing their personalities a bit. I find it kinda hilarious that, just like real blood type statistics, the rarest is O-Type.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;div&gt;&lt;span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"&gt;Type A,&amp;nbsp;&lt;/span&gt;&lt;span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"&gt;Type AB&lt;/span&gt;, &lt;span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);"&gt;Type O&lt;/span&gt;&amp;nbsp;(maybe B),&amp;nbsp;&lt;span style="color: rgb(51, 153, 102);"&gt;Type B&lt;/span&gt;, &lt;span style="color: rgb(0, 204, 255);"&gt;Type B&lt;/span&gt;, &lt;span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 255);"&gt;Type A&lt;/span&gt;, &lt;span style="color: rgb(128, 0, 128);"&gt;Type AB.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;div&gt;&amp;nbsp;&lt;/div&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=felinejaye&amp;ditemid=779" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/&gt; comments</content>
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    <id>tag:dreamwidth.org,2013-11-29:2125775:700</id>
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    <title>felinejaye @ 2019-01-03T22:41:00</title>
    <published>2019-01-03T11:43:29Z</published>
    <updated>2019-01-03T11:43:29Z</updated>
    <dw:security>public</dw:security>
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    <content type="html">&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Me: &lt;/strong&gt;Who is this user why did they subscribe to me??&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&amp;laquo;sees that they post fics with the Bort ship&amp;raquo;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Me:&lt;/strong&gt; You're in!&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=felinejaye&amp;ditemid=700" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/&gt; comments</content>
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    <id>tag:dreamwidth.org,2013-11-29:2125775:257</id>
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    <title>New CamMaxVid Fic!</title>
    <published>2018-12-28T13:59:10Z</published>
    <updated>2018-12-28T14:00:29Z</updated>
    <category term="camp camp"/>
    <category term="smut fic"/>
    <category term="fanfiction"/>
    <category term="problematic smut"/>
    <category term="cammaxvid"/>
    <category term="problematic fic"/>
    <dw:security>public</dw:security>
    <dw:reply-count>1</dw:reply-count>
    <content type="html">&lt;p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 10px; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: &amp;quot;Source Sans Pro&amp;quot;, &amp;quot;Sans Serif&amp;quot;; font-size: 14px; text-align: justify;"&gt;Written as a Secret Santa project. Was only a day late, wow! Most of it was written in about a day, which I like.&lt;br&gt;Read it &lt;a href="https://archiveofourown.org/works/17198021" target="_blank"&gt;here&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=felinejaye&amp;ditemid=257" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/&gt; comments</content>
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